This chick is amazing! She's got like 8 Ozzy songs posted, and a bunch of VanHalen, Metallica, ect. A young girl (I'm assuming Japanese) shredding in what looks like a dorm room: all of my adolescent fantasies rolled up into one. Some posters are claiming it's a dude, but I don't care.

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In Flanders Fields In Flanders fields the poppies blow Between the crosses, row on row, That mark our place; and in the sky The larks, still bravely singing, fly Scarce heard amid the guns below. We are the Dead. Short days ago We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow, Loved, and were loved, and now we lie         In Flanders fields. Take up our quarrel with the foe: To you from failing hands we throw The torch; be yours to hold it high. If ye break faith with us who die We shall not sleep, though poppies grow         In Flanders fields. - John McCrae

Remember
Veterans Day /
Armistice Day.

Thank you
To everyone who has served in their Armed Forces --
Thank you, and my respects.

QotD
Fav quote:
"If you are going through hell, keep going."
- Winston Churchill

Weekend was really good. Felt lengthy. Went to my parents house Saturday and Sunday. Saturday, went with my parents and grandfather to look at houses for him. I guess it went as well as it could. My dad also too me on a ride on his motorcycle. When I was a kid he had one, buy my mom had sold it when I was about 5. So I hadn't been on one since. So now I can say, the only times I've been on a motorcycle has been when I've riden with my dad. :)

Later that night, Krishelle went out to celebrate our 5 month anniversary. Went to Up The Creek for dinner, went bowling, and played some pool. It was fun. Sunday went with Krishelle so we could let her dog Gumbo run around and play with my folks' dogs. We also did some obedience training with Gumbo which seemed to be working really well. Then that night, James came over to my place, where Krishelle, Nathan, James, and I all played Magic together. it was the most people I've played with at one time. We played two-headed giant (two teams with combined life totals). Went to bed with Nate and Jimmy still playing.

Life is making me happy. I hope it is for everyone else too.

Live Long & Prosper

get it on the plate, girl

I had a starch-heavy dinner planned. Picked up a cheap bottle of wine (big on the tongue with a nice, easy finish for $8). I had things that were chomping at the bit...waiting to get out.

Then my computer died some time before I got home.

I think it's been coming for quite some time. How old is it? 5 years old? Ancient in this day and age. But I think it had suffered too much. The same weekend of the downpour in my apartment (a day before the great waterpipe exodus of '09 in the entire back half of the building), I started having some issues. I can't say whether they were water-related or computer-related. I started tweaking like crazy, though. Fiddling with this setting or that setting.

No matter...it just up and quit today. There's electricity pumping into it, but no response. No communication with the monitor, even. A strange beeping, and no use for a boot disk.

I should've gotten a new one anyway. I think this one took a hit from the water pouring in that fateful morning.

So...laptop? Pc? And will there be enough money leftover for a wii? I think there might be...

Dare I?

Oh, I dare.

Phillip will be here wednesday. There's plenty of time, but not enough time. I got most of my 'to do' list completed without even trying. Now to finish the rest of it. And with a hair appointment for Elimy on Sunday after work.

Then there's the matter of what to do while he's here. But not rushing through it and making it last. Relishing.

Wasn't I supposed to be exorcising? Yeah. Nevermind. Quick pieces that mean nothing to no one, then.

A dream. THE dream. There you are. My sister next to you. After so long and i've no idea what to do or say, except 'thank you for the egg'. A hug. An awkward hug. Why does this bother me so much. After so long. It's comfortable. It's accepting. It's platonic. But it bothers me. Greatly. For the rest of the dream and then the rest of the day. A bit of a haunting, that one.

taptap* "Here I am."

But you're not. You're anywhere but here.

Suddenly I feel alone. Departed. Isolated. Not neglected, but neglected. Not abandoned, but abandoned. Not forgotten, but forgotten.

It's cellular. Mitochondrial. Adenosine Triphosphate. Suddenly atomic.

And I'd wanted to type and type and type...but I can only do so much on my phone.

sigh

I'm ok. Tortured. But ok.
Duh.

I love my mother.  Yes there are times when i want to smash her head in. She and i have almost got into fist fights.(Irish Italian)... but then she does something wonderful.


I got my sense of humor and spur of moment sense of life from her.

So i am talking to my mother and grandmother about alot of shit going down this past week.  I say to her " I just need to put on my big girl panties and just do it"

*i am lacking the courage of my convictions*

so today is the mail... i get a package.

My mom mailed me some grandma big panties a horrible light blue color .. and wrote "tia panties" and on the back "put you big girl panties on"

With love and laughter....my family especially my Mom.

Well, Dick Wolf has been booked on a show at Bottletree in December. We're going to be playing as Motörhead, so last night Patrick came over and he and I figured out a set list. We started learning a couple of the songs we're doing: "Orgasmatron" and "Ramones". It went surprisingly well and fast. I'm looking forward to the show.

The horror convention in Indianapolis got canceled yesterday. I had really wanted to go to meet Christina Lindberg, but wasn't sure if I could afford to go. So my answer has been made for me because it's not happening at all now. My bank account is happy, but my heart is a bit bummed. 59 year old Swedish sexploitation stars don't come around too often.

Krishelle started her GMAT prep-course last night. She's taking two classes a week for about a month. And tonight she begins her cake baking class. Being that she's allergic to eggs, she can't eat her efforts, so Nathan and I will be her tasters for the next few weeks. So I'm going to have time to get in some comic book reading and maybe some Tomb Raider playing.

LL&P

Nuke the planet... its the only way to be sure.

this will be one of the hardest days of my life.

i need to bring strong , focused, honest, loving and take care self .

You all please send more strength and love for all involved.

Halloween was great!


About 4:30pm ish I started putting out decorations. I was out of fake cobwebs so I went a little crazy with the black crepe streamers. :) So glad it had stopped raining for the day!

Side note: No, I don't decorate in advance. It kinda makes the day more special and plus most of them are not weather-friendly - Paper lanterns, candles, etc. And then inside I put out a bunch of stuffed black cats and more candles. :)

The kids were adorable, lots of them came up and petted Delta (who thinks this is the greatest holiday ever - Kids to pet her are delivered right to her door!!!). I ran out of candy about 8:30ish, so pulled all the decorations in, turned off the light and headed out to the parties.

Congratulations Blark and K.!
First party was a Halloween/ 1yr anniversary celebration at Blarkless's house. He had gone ALL OUT making a maze in his backyard. The front door was locked with caution tape across it - to get to the party you had to go through the maze. It was a blast and 1 couple even recognized my costume right off the bat. Also, I have to find a picture of Dibs' Bender costume, for it was awe-inspiring...


Second was at a club, a Masquerade ball of sorts. Much much fun was had chatting and dancing, even though the sound system was not wanting to cooperate. Someone had taken the time to put out nice table runners and hanging candle centerpieces - on tables in a night club! One other issue though - apparently they banned flavored cigarettes?? So all the goffy-types who normally smoke cloves in the club were smoking regular cigarettes and ohmygosh it smelled so much worse than any other time I've been there. I still can't get the smell out of my cloak. :(

( Pics! (courtesy of Glas) )

Love this shot.

Elvira: Mistress of the Dark
She's funny. She's hot. She's Elvira. Nuff said. A


Dawn of the Dead
The zombie survival guide to end all zombie survival guides. A++


Trick or Treat
Greatest heavy metal horror movie ever made. A+


Nosferatu
Max Shrek as Nosferatu might just be the scariest figure ever filmed. He is my hero. A++


Well, I made it. Just barely. Watched 31 in 31 days (15 I had never seen before). I wanted to beat my amount of 34 from last year, but it didn't happen. This was a good year, none that were terribly awful. Most were actually quite good. So any way, without further adieu...

The Awards (Of New-To-Me Movies)
• Best Movie: Aliens
• Worst Movie: Children of the Corn
• Least Enjoyable: Candyman
• Best Story: Fire In The Sky
• Funniest: The Boogens
• Scariest: Basket Case
• Best Makeup: Bram Stoker's Dracula
• Raddest: Child's Play

( All of the Movies I Watched )

LL&P

went to a circle.

was okay.

nice to see peeps.

i really need to finish writing my book.... but this and that ...(i feel guilty about sitting and writing instead of house work and such..same goes for yoga and strength training.)

I wasn't sure there was a need for it till i saw something /heard something particular at circle.

*closed fist holding.. boar*

like the people ...just different perspectives.

It wasn't much. A few words here, a few words there. Suddenly: my world is completely on its head.

But I wasn't.

It was quick. Painless. Without confusion. I understood and so did he. We nodded from across those many, many miles - only a few hours more than the distance between Chicago and Paris. We both acknowledged and left that book open. The pages moving back and forth in the wind.

But the words seemed wrong, on those pages. After our brief exchange, the words weren't fair anymore. They painted a different picture. The things I was reading from him didn't fit into the cracks I'd left for the previous handful of years. Forgive and forget seems nice...but finding out that the desire to forget hasn't been there...that's different. That changes everything. But changes nothing.

A sudden plunging is needed to clear the drains...pages and pages trying to funnel through so quickly...history rewritten. The story's still the same, but the motivations aren't.

Surprisingly, control let's go. Hidden hangups disappear. And the permission I didn't require gives me new fire and renews my passion. A blessing. An encouragement. An absolution. But at the same time, an understanding of cellular connections. Cosmic knowledge.

We are all made of stars so it's nice to run into some familiar dust in your lifetime. Imagine finding two stellar bodies and knowing them instantly.

Oh, to know this recent one better. Of the same mold, I believe we were made. Regardless of outcomes...we're familial and shall remain so.

Yes.

May you say your hellos and goodbyes to the loved ones lost.

May you  brave the dark to find the truths that wait beyond.

May the Crone keep you and yours safe in the next year.

Let the Fates be kind and giving.

Mystcbrd

Merry
Samhain!
Happy
Birthday,
dj_fanye,
viylette (Sat),
ding_0_ (Sat),
infiniti666 (Sat),
sabrina_pandora (Sat),
& pelmen78 (Sun)

Off today
And it's been great being lazy! ^_^

my football cherry that is.

I have never been to a football game... Shadrone wanted to visit his his sis and bro in the marching band.

It was interesting to watch the social dynamics and strange to see how young they all look.

How the cheerleaders still brought contempt to my mind.

How the drums are still my fav..

Wishing i had been more involved in high school... then realizing i could have never fit in cause my life is more about adult situations.

It was odd.. but a good experience to have....

watching all those on the other side of the social scene...

coaches yelling a being abusive to the football players...

the geeks in school who i could tell will  be hunks in about 3 years...

who this is there peek in life.

perspective.<input ... ><input ... >

Last night, Jimmy James came over to Krishelle's were we played Magic for several hours. We had a great time doing it. I have 3 decks of my own now (a sliver deck Krishelle gave me, and 2 being a mod-podge of booster packs I've purchased). I've named my decks: there's the Porch Deck, the Col. Decker Deck, and the Dumar Deck. The names are completely arbitrary, unlike Krishelle's vampire deck or James's angel deck. Anyway, today, I went on ebay and got a few cards that I REALLY want, so that I may become unstoppable!! HA AH!
( Don't read (because you won't care) )

LL&P