half an inch? that makes me? 

last friday was needed.
sat and the alcohol poisoning
maybe not so much, but friday.
I knew what kind of night it was
going to be, because I've known
what kind of week it had been.

the stress of moving is creeping.
not just the moving the physical part..
the idea of letting go of some of the
control in my life.

it'll be fine. just tiny stress.
(mole hills out of mountains)
friday night while granted i was
super dee duper drunk before
MC even finished their set it reminded
me of how much i adore that man.


i've shared my second favourite
drunken moment with him.
that makes me happy.

here's to hoping i wasn't an asshole
just a drunk friday night.
somethings you just know the next
day, but that was a blackout drunk.
fun was had by all! 

now let's do it again this weekend? heh
(maybe)
I do know that I AM IN SERIOUS NEED
of a REAL FUCKING VACATION! 

why do i deprive myself of these things?
between, work, school, family, music
and mike. i feel guilty if i schedule anything
for myself completely. like i have to wait. the ironic
thing is ..my mom will be at the beach the first
week of may, and so will mike. i'll be at work.
granted mike's going to a wedding and my
mom is going toa nursing home convention..
she still invited me to go down.
my mom will prob have to take the Texas
trip without me as well, because she wants
to go in May or June. I haven't seen my bebe
cousins in two years. they've been in foster care
up until a few months ago.
don't get me wrong..
i'll be at the beach..wrong weekend but
it'll still be fun. (i hate that i was the one
who spoiled the fun bleh) 

i prob won't be able to go to Kiley's trial.
because it is scheduled in june.

speaking of.
yes. i do live in the past a lot.
i'm trying to let it go and i've done a
much better job at it this year than
most any year in my life.
but my eyes glaze over sometimes..
and it is hard to see much else.
i remember.
too much.

details such tiny tiny details.

i want a nap before work.
stayed up til'4am working on
a paper. school is closed due
to power outage. trees were
down left and right.
uprooted.

i am
being


up rooted.