Current mood:

excited

thanks to monkeee!

i now have a copy of this audio book. while i will do
my best to continue this book 
 

(which i am  enjoying quite well!) i will prob break at
some point and have to stop and listen.
while the physical vacations are nice and well
needed. it's wonders what a mental vacation
can do for you. (me!) and lately it has def
been in books. simply reading. it has also
been in juice! lol
it seems silly and i've never used a kitchen
contraption this much before. it's relaxing
and fun and ..i don't care what you say! 
;)

thus far celery, apple, and cucumber & 
orange, grapefruit and lemon are my favourite! 

as i am approaching 30 which eh...it's a bit
O_O but when i sit down, not so much. I find
that as i get a bit older, (just a bit goddamnit!)
that while fun is still just as amazing and thrills
and excitement and new new..gimme something
new..the idea of meaning has started to peek in
to my life. not my own meaning or my life's meaning..
rather than doing things that have meaning and impact
on others in a positive way.

it's refreshing to learn the art of selfishness
and selflessness.
they are both a required class in life..imho.
don't be stingy but don't just give it away.
(now!?) heh.

OH! i made a B in my dummy math class!! 
w00t!! i am pretty sure there is a mistake
somewhere, but this encourages me to
continue with my education. if you've
been around me you know how down i've
been about this aspect of my life..how confused
i've been. well there are two moments that
helped me. a conversation that i just listened
to ..and the fact that i made a b instead of a D as
i thought! w00t! (really a math class did make
the decision for me ..well mostly)
listening to other teachers..and even though
they say "it's the hardest job i've ever had, but
goddamnit i love it" is an amazing thing to hear.

anywho! 
today i went to meet with the WE Gardens
i do hope that i stick with this volunteering.
it's amazing to be sitting in a community
garden. it reminds me of my grandfather.
how his garden started to die and now is
no more..it's been almost a year..and i still
get choked up. father's day is going to be hard,
but we'll manage. i feel like volunteering for a
community garden in some way is my ..
way of refusing to forget him. it's amazing
what a little hope and folks with determination
can do ..to streets that are known more for
crime than their compost station (which is
amazing! why am i so fascinated with compost?)
okay.
i'm shutting it now! 
but to leave you with this in mind! 
never trust a klingon..mwahahaha.



what are you up to?